$7 child support checks

I got a $7.00 child support check, yeah, $7 dollars!! Im rich, me and the kids are fixing to ball out at the nearest Ruth Chris. Ok..probably not thats a little exagerrated. Im actually about to go buy some milk and a loaf of bread..that should about do it!! Everytime I get one of these checks I want to drive to my hometown, kicking in doors, till I find that nigga! Yes, I called him a nigga because he is acting like one. Contrary to popular belief there will always be bitches and niggas, not with any color attatched to it, there are white bitches and white niggas too! Niggas do nigga shit and this is nigga shit. Im pissed. This anger lasted for all of 10 minutes until I realized that I was the one to blame. This was one time that I had no way to excuse myself. What he was doing to me was nothing new,  I watched him do it to other women before me, I guess I just figured he would never do it to me. Its funny how we will see a man and how he has interacted with other women and put our blinders to it like we are not the same. Like yourself and the other women are on totally different levels so "he knows better than to play with you" What the hell is wrong with us? If we were on a different level from the last woman, we wouldnt even be fuckin with this nigga, cause HE wouldnt be on our level. It amazes me how we will make excuses for these niggas because we WANT them but after they do all the ignorant shit that we can handle, they aint shit! We are fucking nuts! He isnt doing anything any different than he was doing when we first met him, we just thought that if we showed him that we were superwoman, he would magically turn into superman. When he didnt turn into Superman you became angry and bitter because you feel played. You gave too much and he never gave near enough. Umm No, BOOBOO!! That is not the way the shit works. If we would get the penis off of our brains and use a lot more intelligence and a lot less emotion we wouldnt have these issues. When they show you who they are believe them!! You cant change him you have too much you need to change about yourself. I cant be mad at him, he was a $7 type nigga when I met him. And I loved it. haha..so I'm gonna lace up my shoes and get to it, no sense at being angry for something I asked for and being bitter only halts my dreams. There is something about accepting responsibility for my decision making that makes my struggle a lot easier.

Ima keep it real
screaming "fuck how they feel"
"Straight Drop"

AshleeRoche'